I am reading
The Perks of Being a Wallflower by Stephen Chbosky. I am truly enjoying this book since it is about a misfit and his ninth grade year of high schooler. The main character, Charlie, has just broken up with his first girlfriend, Mary Alice. Although Mary Alice is smart and cute and very into Charlie, Charlie just can't get over the fact that, since she's a senior and he's a freshman, she keeps trying to "improve" him by exposing his to all these new "foreign" ideas and concepts. Unfortunately, Charlie doesn't actually talk to her about it, but instead, he takes a childish way out that ends up hindering his friendship with everyone in Mary Alice's circle of friends. Which, unfortunately, is also Charlie's circle of friends.
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| This is Charlie's way of saying "I love you." |
"I know that I brought this all on myself. I know that I deserve this. I'd do anything not to be this way. I'd do anything to make it up to everyone. And to not have to see a psyhiatrist, who explains to me about being "passive aggressive." And to not have to take the medicine he gives me, which is too expensive for my dad." page 139
In this scene, Charlie expresses his regret over what how he broke up with Mary Alice. Due to his lack of experience with girls, his insecurity over telling what he really feels, and his avoidance of confronting anybody, Charlie makes a huge mess out of not only his relationship with Mary Alice, but also his friendships with Patrick and Sam. Here, he realizes that it would have been better to talk to Mary Alice face-to-face, rather than making a big scene in front of everyone and embarrassing her. Next, Charlie has to avoid his whole crowd, which means eating lunch by himself and becoming a loner once again.
